Im young. Im a teenage girl for godsake. I go crazy, i sing at the top of my lungs like nobodys in the room. I scream at happines, sadness, frustration face it, i scream at everything. I dance around my room,my living room hell i dance around my entire house whether im good at it or not. I cry, all the time. About everything from time going by too fast, lost memories to not feeling good enough. I'm lonely. I have tons of friends, then i suddenly have no one. I get depressed, alot lately infact. I feel fat, i feel ugly. I get dressed up,wear makeup, get a manicure & a haircut & then finally feel pretty again. My hearts been broken.. too many times to count. But i continue to keep moving on. I love, love. And i want it. Doesnt every single soul on this planet? But m not desparate. A girl doesnt need anyone that doesnt need her. I shop till i drop. I will never have enough jewlery. I paint my nails different every other week. I don't let anyone see me without makeup, except for my bestfriends of course. I could eat sour patch kids for the rest of my life if i had to. I have a huge heart that noone seems to understand. Im so insanely crazy about this guy who im worried doesnt even like me half as much, but i still continue to put myself out there. Im trying to find me.But am i trying to create myself in this life? Or am i finding myself, i dont know. I have problems in my life,I wear a fake smile, i dont care who you are, its not that easy to just "smile" & be purely happy. no one can see the fears, the worries & the insecurities i am drowning in. I act completely stupid, crazy, immature,happy, fearful, dedicated, motivated, i am underestimated. & all i want is for people to accept me. Just someone to love my flaws, my weaknesses, my stregnths everythig that i am & everything that i am trying to find. Someone to just be happy & satisfired with all that i am, with all of me.

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